Calculus

I went to my math school today since June when exams were comeing near. I restarted my Calculus and they scrapped the limits that I was on and automatically started me off with Derivitives. The first question, what a bitch lol. JK. I just had to remember limits whcih I totally forgot then I found out after doing so much of it there is even a much much much more shorter way to find the answer. Pissed me off! Then I started with Binomial Derivities and Fractional Derivites, I was crushed. I had to freakin’ factor and expand cubic and quartic equations….soooooo long….then after doing that stuff for so long….they taught me a shorter way…I was super pissed! haha. There was a teacher there that kept on coming over to see what I do and he kept on bugging me and everytime I had trouble on a question, he would just take my paper away and try to work on the question himself leaving me to watch him. It was stupid ’cause for the whole hour he was with me, he did not teach me squat. The University students there had to teach me and that guy didn’t do one dam thing to help me. I was pissed off, that guy was off in a world of his own trying to solve a question instead of helping me. Then I got so screwed up because there was fractions…geeze, fractions are so hard man especially with factored quadratic and cubic and addition with multiplication…its all too complicated. The funny thing was that I spent the whole entire time their doing only one page. Unfortunately…I was only able to do a third of the work and then they had to close. After math school, I went to a bookstore and bought two kickash textbooks costing like 200 bux in total and when I am done with them…I get to return them its like so cool. I bought textbooks to learn in the summer and stuff and I get to return them afterword that is like sooo cool. Anyways…then I went to Chapters and bought a couple of magazines. I haven’t played guitar for like five days now and I still gotta learn 2 songs before my next lesson. LOL I bought three guitar magazines and one gaming magazine. I”m gonna like not read any of them until like when September starts.

GRrrrr my parents are so embarrassing. We went to the book store and then all of a sudden, my mom starts speaking to me in Chinese…very loud. It was so quiet in the book store that you could hear a water drop. She starts speaking to me in Chinese VERY LOUD and it just pissed me off. Then for some reason she starts asking me, oh my get these books, is this for school, what about this one, or this one, why not this one. AAAAAH SOSOOOOOOO FUCKIN’ louud. So I start distancing myself away from them, but the book store was small and the book shelves on the walls and it was a wide open area and couldn’t get away. I just try to walk away and not look at them like the rest of us. We are embarrassed by are parents, all them time, and try seperate ourselves when the parents don’t seem to fit into what society thinks of people. And it was all in Chinese and for half the time, I did not understand what she was saying ’cause I am CBC and I do not practice in the way of the FOB. She starts calling me all these cute names for some reason in public and calls my dad over. I fuckin’ hate it when Chinese parents don’t call each other by their given names. I hate it, almost probably all Chinese parents do..cept if they are white washed…my mom calls my dad daddy and my dad calls my mom mommy pisses me off, they can’t call each other by their first names. They scream to when they call each other which is so stupid. Then I get pissed off at my mom and lash out at her and then she starts speaking to me in English with bad grammer. The worst part is that she starts talking to me in the cute cuddly type of way that ALL FOBBY GIRLS do, that just pisses me off right there.

Networking

I have created a local area network for my home…unfortunately it does not work and when it actually does work, the internet stops working. Everytime I go on the network/internet, the other one shuts down and it sucks so much I can’t transfer files and watch porn at the same time …. i mean…yah lol. Seriously though, the internet was created for the military its called something like ARPNEN or something, I learned it in Computer Science and forgot. Anways, haha the internet was created so the military can use it for information and shit like that, then it got into the consumer’s hands and the information superhighway was kindled into the hands of PORNOGRAPHY. Yeah pornography is good once everything all there is legal and stuff but wow have you ever checked how many sites there are for porn, lol. David letterman was searching for toy tractors to buy for his son and the sixth listing that came up was a porn sight about wives with big boobs wanting to give you a peck or sumthing. lol. Then Darryll Makk was like, hmm I need recipes to cook my fish, type snapper in their and wham, porn sight. Either that is not a snapper or that snapper is really busy…hey hey hey! You try cooking with only one hand. JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZ…..lol that was just stupid right there so anyways:

I create the freakin’ thing, I got my other computer to actually print on the printer hooked up to the other computer, it is so freakin’ cool. It is pretty cool. My dad bought a new router or modem, I can never tell them apart, I always forget, anyways we got it and stuff and blah, my sister got wireless and now she is in her room the whole day watching her downloads slowly go by one second at a time while I am still stuck down here watching my downloads complete at a slower rate. I mean, I have the ability to go wireless….but I’m too lazy. I had to reinstall the thing like four times and I’m usually not using wireless so there is no point anymore. I actually got a Grade 12 Physics CD and thought to myself, yes sweet, now I can bone up on Physics before school starts but unfortunately, the freakin’ disk is a McGraw-Hill Ryerson one and its a CD which needs a proper authorization code in order for you to see whats on the disk and apparantly, I need Adobe Acrobat 4 for some reason…even though I have Adobe Acrobate Freakin’ 6 AAUGH! Its so slow too, it takes almost about a minute to freakin’ display the info. I want to destroy it but then I would have to pay my friend who got it for me five bux.

I say, my friend’s school is like wtf. His Chemistry prof’ has his own store, its called ‘The Underground’ store and what the teacher sells is like almost anything and all proceeds go to help the Chemistry department pay for new equipment….cough cough. Its funny though cause his teacher doesn’t care for safety. While they were doing a lab in the class, one of the students asks the teacher for an ice cream bar and the teacher says sure and throws it at the student freaky. Man I wish I was at that school cause the pHysics teacher there does not care one bit at all for the subject. Last year he made his class build a motor for the Physics ISP. That is so cool while me and my school, well the teachers made us do a WHOLE unit on sound. Them and their wavelengths, sound, strings, frequency…it can go to hell for all I care.

So anyways, has anyone have this happened to them before….I was watching porn…lol…my computer just turned off automatically with all the usualy sceens: “now shutting down computer,” “logging off,” “saving your settings” and stuff. It was so freaky. Then yesterday around 5:30 I come back to my computer a few minutes after I turned it on and it restarted by itself for some reason. Then I found out…it was a black out…lol no i’m just jokinig. It was a rolling black out something like that. My dad told me, it has happened to my sister before. Apparently there is like a one second black out for some reason and no one notices this cause the power comes back on just like that. PSH i say he’s wrong, it was surge thing and the circuits overloaded and shut down by themselves. I checked on the internet and apparently, some people have gotten the same problem and so I chekc and check but then everyone else is syaing ya before it shuts down, a window pups up with a timer and says that I need to shut down and must save all my information or else it would be lost. JEez I actually thought it was a virus. It was funny cause one person’s computer kept on shuttding down automatically after every 20 minutes he turned it on. Then there were people…lol who couldn’t get their computers to shut down for some apparent reason. Then their were those lazy ones who wanted to get rid of the “Its now safe to shut down your computer” screen everytime they shut down their computer. LOL I remember when my computer go the sasser virus. It was funny everyone in my class was on the internet and then WHAM all of a sudden all those who were hooked up to the internet got the warning and it said save all your information computer has to shut down in 30 seconds. Technicians came and saw and conquered and investigaged and found out that the Sasser worm was on the server, so every computer hooked up to the inernet was like freakin’ infected by the virus. Fortunately for the school all the computers have a program called “Deepfreeze” on it in whcih everytime you shut donw the computer, the program like reformats it everytime you boot it up again so all the information saved on the C drive will be lost once you shut it down. Baq on traq, so I installed everything I could hoping to get rid of a potential virus installing and installing…then I find out there is nothing wrong with my computer. DUDE. lool soo anyways … I checked the ‘Event Viewer’ and apparently all problems lead to the Internet browser I am using –> MOZILLA FIREFOX god dam, and I thought this shit was going to be good…lol anyways no the other culprit as well could be the bittorent client that I use, but I am never sure. I put in a surge protecter and wham so far nothing has happened, it also happened on my other computer as well. GOd dam and then the sutpid thing wouldn’t let me log in for some reason. The login screen came back up after it resumed out of screeen saver. The stupid thing would not let me type the username and password and said only the administrator/owner of laptop can acess the the the computer. It was funny because I am the owner and administrator of it. STupid thing wouldn’t let me type the stuff in so I was blocked out of my own computer. I though for a about 10 seconds after malliciously beating down on the keyboard after a few seconds as well and decided to restart the dam thing. Well so far nothing has gone wrong and it is a bitch if this thing ever happens again.

One day during the summer, I will hope to tear down the walls confiding my computer to its insides and actually see how a computer works in order to better myself for the future lol. I’m just gonna take apart the cmoputer biit by bit and see which drive is which and which card is which. look around at the system bios and see what the hell is going in in there and try to change the computer around a biut and hopefully not screw it up lol. I’m gonna be like my cousin who’s made a computer and the tower is like 6 inches high and he installed surround sound in his bedroom… pretty funky and he also installed a fan on the side which looks pretty cool. He’s pretty smart eh unlike the rest of my cousins. Both the eldest cousins on my dad’s side bro and sis, man they are both like computer engineers…well the sister is and the brother, he is a attuary or whatever…a profession dealing with calculating how much you are compensated for insurance for say you get killed and your partner gest wahat. Thats what my parents said and I don’t know if they are pronoucning the word right. lol. He used to want to become a computer engineer but I guess he stopped. He transfered Universities and apparently, I don’t know if this is true becuae my parents tend to EXAGGERATE a lot but he transfered universities and in the math class, everyone was asking him questions and stuff because he knew everything there and understood it..he got pissed off and transfered back. I mean he is smart, he did graduate University and highschool the same time as his siter did even though he is two years younger than her. ya apparently he is so smart he graduated the same year as his sister….lol obviously. When he transfered universities, he had to stay back an extra year because of curriculum differentiation for sum reason or whatever, but still managed to graduate the same year. Now its pretty funny cause my parents say that he works for a company that is in competition to the company his dad is workin’ for lol. Whatever, then the sister, yah she’s smart graudating with like a 95% ya but she’s just a normal person I guess does nothing really just like us all lazy people lol works for a company of sort downtown or sumthing or whatever.

First its my eldest cousins who have graduated and blah and now have careers like a year after graduation then their is me and my sister. She is in Univeristy and I am still in highschool. My grades are slipping but I am still smart enough statistically to get into university. Both of us are getting their and soon one day we will have careers I hope.. My other cousins…though not so great. I mean the one after me, ya she’s pretty smart maybe smarter than me but the rest…..OH GOD I worry for them. They have already taught their baby sister who is like 2 years old how to swear. Then even showed m3, ya that baby can say FUCK and they also have taught her how to fight. They fight sooo much and try to outboast each other by saying ya i’m better at school, more athletic, stronger, have the better Pokemon cards, better Gameboy, I’m teling mom…blah blah blah. One of them especially, I feel is going to be beat up like almost everyday of his highscool life cause thsi guy is a suck up and more of the mother’s type. The other ones, man they are all horny and their minds are tainted with sex all over. One cousin almost gets jumped everyday for some reason, two of my cousins think they are gangsters which is why and yet they are still in Elementary school. Wow it has shocked my to learn that they know more sexual linguo and more slang than me. They are in like Grade 7/8 now and they are already talking about the girls and lifting up their skirts and stuff and how so many people in their school are all so loose and are willing to have sex for some reason for the people at my school… MANY are stiff which is probably because for many r azns and many are uncomfortable with that idea and that I go to a Catholic school and that if you even try something like that you can get suspended for a semester. My school is dominated by them. They don’t even play sports which worries me. My elder cousins played hockey and basketball, sister figure skating, and me hockey and mainly hockey I play other sports but…psh, hockey is the one I play the most..yeah. The other one plays baseball but thats it. They tell me stories about fainting and falling down in gym. They are forced to run like 3 miles around the school and they can’t even make one lap around without passing out…seriously, they are gettin fatter and fatter. I’ve seen them do push ups gawd, they stick their asses up so high, its like a new landmark right there. Man they are getting less athletic each day. They are even getting dumber.. I mean hey I may be exaggerating a little bit and maybe going to hard but seriously, WTF.!!!! LOL

wow it took me like 30 minutest to write this POC up!

My Chemical Romance – Helena

I watched ‘Helena’ by ‘My Chemical Romance’ for the first time…a few months ago. Then today I actually said, what the hell is that video talkin’ bout?! LOL. It’s about a girl…obviously…and in the video she is dead and they are at the Church conducting the funeral cermony and stuff and then the girl starts dancing with extras and its a musical. So weird. Musical with a dead body dancing around with everyone else and then she just falls back in the coffin with her eyes wide open. The lead singer is singing while he is walking down the steps with the other band members I assume… then I’m like…’Isn’t that coffin heavy?’ I mean like wow he is able to sing and walk down the steps at the same time, I mean like wow he must be strong well ya with the other band members. It would be a pain though if you were one of the mounties carrying Pierre Elliot Trudeau after he passed away. I saw that ceremony, freakin’ CTV had to interrupt my cartoon morning to show the funeral. I saw those mounties, it took them like half an hour to get the coffin from the front of the Church to the Hearse. I say, they were walking one step for like every 5 seconds. If that were me, my shoulders would have been in freakin’ pain, but not as much pain as the NAVY SEALS and how they carry the rubber life rafts for like a whole hour, then they have to run in the beach at like 3AM in the morning and have to go into the water and come back out. That would be the worst. Ya and in that video, it was raining to so I be thinking, what if that guy slipped while walking down the steps, holy shit, that guy would have been hurt and the coffin on top of him, you could only see his feet and legs dangling around, and then the corpse just plops out, eeeeww.

Discrete

I was taught Discrete again today with another teacher and I was just plain ‘what the hell?’ Seriously, I think I can do Discrete my self. After two failed attempts at it, I am pretty sure that I think I can learn this stuff by myself. In the morning, I’ll just get the text book and have a fun time watching that book turn gray with dust. Tommorow, I’m starting Calculus again and this time, I will nto forget the shit or else I will be screwed! Whatever…seriously, I said I was gonna do something in Chemistry but I’m not gonna do it. There is no point for me…lol..unless….